Friday, December 11, 2009 Y 12:31 AM

went running/jogging with my brother for the first time today.
i don't know why, but it seems like such a historical moment ;D

'kak, how come you can endure for 3 km ah!
akak pakai ilmu apa seh..'
you.crack.me.up.

-siti(:



and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Thursday, December 10, 2009 Y 6:13 PM

i just watched the 'nobody but you' music video.
for the first time.
be amused people, be very amused.

-siti(:


and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Y 10:19 AM

gain on this.
lose on that.
start on those.

all in a month's work.
okay set xD

-siti(:


and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Tuesday, December 08, 2009 Y 3:20 PM

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high
[High, Lighthouse Family]

i'm sure we're all capable of something much better than this.
we wanna let all of this go, don't we? :D

i wanna be more like haziq.
that, vs haziq. (haha yeah he should be honoured xD)
hes someone who..when he feels that someone's in the wrong,
he'll just blast it on his blog regardless if that person
is a close friend of his or whatever. well, thats a picture i get ah.
i think that's a real cool thing. stand for what you believe in man.
kudos :D

-siti(:



and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Y 7:44 AM

an-nadhah (:


























we should seriously maximise this room in the next two years ey? ;D

-siti(:


and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Monday, December 07, 2009 Y 3:09 PM

i'm finally ready to say goodbye to RGS (:

im not gonna write a very long 'thank you rgs'
post, because the memories i've built in this school
and the friends i've met here matter so much more 
and you can read alllll about that in my archives, 
if you actually bother xD 

i came across this quote though, which i felt depicted
the most valuable lesson i've learnt throughout
my four years in this insititution:

"To be nobody but yourself in a world that’s doing its best 
to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle
 you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting."
E.E. Cummings

and thus, i salute all of you who have stayed true to yourselves
in this school. grades after all, are just grades. 
(yes yes some might beg to differ, but it's my opinion here xD)
but the good person  you turn out to become after four years here, 
is possibly the greatest achievement you could ever get. 
the society here, it's a pressure cooker. 
some of us tend to conform to what we deem 'acceptable' by others. 
others, are the ones who keep swimming against that current 
and making sure they never get carried away.
i salute these people. i must say, at some point of time,
some of us became cowards. afraid to speak up, to stand up for
what we believed in, to right what's wrong, to seize opportunities.
but along the way, it was heartening to see that we found our voices,
learnt to fight against the odds and most importantly, 
remembered who we truly are - our principles, our values.

so guys, keep staying true to yourselves yeah (:
im not sure how to end this thing, but a classic
filiae melioris aevi seems the way to go :D

Im an rgs graduate of batch '09, y'all. xD

-siti(:




and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Y 1:39 AM

'We got a little world of our own
I'll tell you things that no one else knows
I let you in where no-one else goes
What am I doing without you
And all of the things I've been looking for
Have always been here outside of my door
And all of the time I'm looking for something new
What am I doing without you'
[world of our own, westlife]

-siti(:





and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Sunday, December 06, 2009 Y 12:20 PM

i didn't tell you,
cos i think you knew anyway :D

-siti(:


and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Y 10:39 AM

CONGRATULATIONS TO THE CAST AND CREW OF MAHKAMAH KEADILAN COS YOU GUYS DID A SUPERDYDUPER AWESOME JOB YESTERDAY AND IT WAS SUCHHHH A GREAT WAY FOR US SEC FOURS TO END OFF THE YEAR WITH A BANG!

thank you guys for spending all your time and effort
for the past few months to realisasikan this show :D
each and every single one of you, i repeat,
EVERY SINGLE ONE of you, had been a tremendous help
be it the pubs and welfare, admin, props/set designers, 
costumes and makeup people, ava people, directors,
tarian-ers, afiqah for sajak-ing and murnira for being ma
stage manager shadow, the chorus and not forgetting..
THE CAST OF COURSE! 0h thanks goes to teater artistik
as well and to cikgu nisa and cigku roziyah for helping us out
along the way (:

and abagazillion thanks goes to all of you who came down to watch!
we TOTALLY appreciate it, haha thank you for laughing as well xD

it has been a..how do i put this, fruitful experience working with
the team and by fruitful i mean, there were sweetstrawberries and
sourgrapes moments, haha. so yeah, kudos to all you guys and may
PERBAYU come up with a superawesomefantastic event next year!
*grins*

but as we all know, all some good things come to an end..
same goes with this post. so if you're up for reading the behind the scenes
of the drama, go ahead and continue. if you'd rather stop here and 
feel a sense of accomplishment already, it's up to you as well (:

there were a few things that i've learnt during this drama production
which i feel would help juniors make a better production next year,
and help us sec 4s be better PEOPLE by next year.

firstly, communication, is VERY important. it's the number one thing
on the list of 'how to make a good production'. when decisions are made,
they should be made known to everyone. the most atas people should
pass the message down to the other heads and then they will pass it down
to those in their committee. information should not reach at a standstill 
at the 'atas people' stage or the 'other heads' stage.
pass it on. 
haven't we sung that song too many times?

secondly, don't just talk. don't just critic. 
DO SOMETHING.
to those who are unsatisfied, lay out all your cards on the table.
bitch as much as you want but nothing will be solved until you
come upfront and talk face to face with the person you're dissatisfied with.
and to those who are at the mercy of people getting dissatisfied with you,
take criticism with an open mind and it's not enough to just hear,
you have to LISTEN. no matter how good of a job you think you're doing,
if a group of people are telling you you're not doing it right, then you
probably have to think again. and it's neverNEVER too late to change
how things work. never. 
oh and rememer: we're a democratic society, not authorative.

at this point, i'd like to say that the second point speaks to me as well.
real loud. i have to learn to take criticism well.
even if someone says that 'budak kecik can say it better than you guys' 
or if another says 'saya rasa awak berbahas lagi bagus daripada sajak awak'
in front of other people. i have to suck it up and just prove them wrong.
whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, no? yesterday it
affected me like shit and then all you nice friends gave me your hugs
and your farnylittle encouragements xD haha IBUF. 
thanks very2 much eh you guys!
must've been annoying after awhile so, yeash, i apologise D:

thirdly, don't depend on others.
sometimes you just have to do things yourself.
if you keep waiting for people like, quoted from miza:
'macam tunggu durian runtuh siak'..
things won't progress. so take the initiative and ask
what needs to be done. it's bad enough if people are not 
telling you what your job is. don't make it worse
by being some tunggul/kayu/batu who doesn't do anything 
either. 

fourthly, give credit where it's due. VERY IMPORTANT.
acknowledge the things that people have done. oh, and if 
you're working as a team, please, remember to use WE, not I.
don't go all syiok sendiri and think that whatever you created
is all due to your hard work. (unless it truly is ah). and remember
to say PLEASE and THANK YOU, whether you're orang atasan
or bawahan, manners is still very2 important.

fifthly, RESPECT. respect your seniors. respect those of your level.
respect people who are working their butts off to put things together.
give us respect and we'll give the same thing back. don't buat bising
macam tempat tu korang punya. no one's stopping you from having fun.
but don't take that forgranted either, cos that might make people think twice
the next before granting you freedom to do what you want.

last but not least, know when to be sensitive, and when to be crude.
when you know that someone is doing something wrong, tegur baik-baik,
see if there's a reason behind why she's doing it wrong.
jangan main serang tak pakai helmet, nanti diri sendiri yang sakit.
but when nothing changes and whatever the person's doing becomes
a bad habit, maybe that's when you can take a step up and be say things
with that black face and WTF tone of yours. but never, EVER, touch on
things like the person's family, or past. i think that's rather mean. and 
sungguh tidak relevant langsung.  

'nuff said :D

I dont care if you hate me after this.
If it makes you a better person, then so be it.

-siti(:






and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Saturday, December 05, 2009 Y 12:30 AM

i'll rant my heart out/post pictures/etc
once this is over. Till then...

TODAY'S THE DAY :D

-siti(:


and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];

Thursday, December 03, 2009 Y 12:19 AM

'i think a budak kecik can say it better than you guys'

thanks, thanks a lot :D

-siti(:



and there she goes again/ the optimistic pessimist :];